I never knew my feelings would grow this deep and take roots so quickly. Even though our relationship have already officially ended, I know he still and I still have something holding us back. Perhaps it's the times we've spent together; how used to each other I/we have been. It have already been months since our feelings turn sour and bitter. But we kept holding on the mere hope from a four letter word. After all, I understand that he and I both also, at the same time is getting on better with our lives and accomplishing a lot more as compared to when we were still together. This was what he had wanted. He always thought that our r/s obstructs us from achieving certain things. Not me though. I know well 'd give up all these dreams for him. But still, I went along with his decision. Only because I grew up knowing that we can't force feelings to change, nor can we stop a person who has already made up his mind from leaving. 

It's not like he is perfect. I admit with him around, it's not like my life is perfectly wondrous. But I really missed his sincere eyes, the caring words and soft touch of his hands. Maybe I should've taken another approach. Maybe I should've always told him how 've felt; maybe I shouldn't always hide my feelings then maybe, just maybe, he would not go. And I would not hurt more.

What can I still do when my true emotions have already been exposed and the words I say can't seem to cut it anymore?