've noticed that I have a kind of phobia to click on my own site. I don't understand why. Is it because 'm embarrassed by my own thoughts, or was it because 'm afraid to hear words that will bring me down again?

I am having more and more draft posts, lesser and lesser published ones. I guess the reason is simple: because I don't want any hard feelings by my own stand of view. Moreover, if I were to write in my own language, nobody 'd understand.

I wished to be brave and invicible too though, and say what I want. But I am not allowed to. Everyword I said, can cause a fuss. Be it to the adults or to the peers.

Guess I led too much an imperfect life.