For a moment, it felt like everyone else in this world 've died.
I feel like 'm growing old, very very old.. And I don't have anymuch time left. I don't have too many things in my to-do list though.. Since 've being cancling them every now and then because I figured out that 'll either find them interesting anymore or because I don't think I can never do that/get there.
You're right, I most probably 'd be happier like this - without high expectations; so 'd have nobody to fail me, so 'd not fall.